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So one of Shlomo's friends gave him a recipe for homemade Ecto Cooler. I grew up on that shit so I automatically jumped at trying it. Sadly I couldn't get all the ingredients (no Tangerine Kool Aid mix so I had to use double Orange Kool Aid mix). I assembled it tonight and it definitely tastes good...just not sure how accurate it really is considering it's been 15 years since I actually had Ecto Cooler, lol.

On a random note, my niece still rules the world. She says jump, majority of the family asks "how high?" Whenever I end a session with her, I can't wait for the next one. She's a year and a half and to me, smart as hell. She got a shot today and after her nap was a bit stiff, so she said "hurt" and "bandaid" yet after we asked if she wanted the bandaid off she said "no" and kept trying to stretch it like we told her to do. Very smart and oh so adorable...

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Here's a breakdown of how absolutely shitty my day was yesterday:
-had to go in to work at 3am to check computers that were down the day before; because they were up, I had to do an hour or so of work on them
-woke up feeling like crap with a really sore and dry throat; afraid I may be getting sick what my mom/brother/niece had
-even though the bathroom door was shut, Dan almost walked in on me taking a crap but I luckily let him know I was inside before the door opened more than a crack
-worked on making a Pumpkin Kahula Swirl Cheesecake, I read the wrong line and used 3/4 cup butter instead of 1/4 cup butter for the crust
-while blind baking the crust, it went 1 minute too long in the crappy oven and was quasi burnt
-while spooning pumpkin out of the can, I cut my finger on the lid and had trouble getting it to stop baking
-ran out of time and couldn't get a pumpkin and any extra decorations that I wanted
-found out the plug I thought we had in the garage to set up a tv+ps2 to watch stuff while handing out candy is nonexistent and only located in the breezeway, yet we don't have an extension cord so my plans were null
-I couldn't figure out how to get into my costume from last year, there were too many holds and not enough appendages
-my porch light decided to break and by break I mean become detached from itself so the metal was still in the outlet; no potatoes or anything similar so I didn't have a working porch light to fully let kids know I was handing out candy
-my mom came over randomly and parked in the driveway, which I didn't want her to do but she insisted it would be fine
-with my mom over, my plans to watch something on the main tv were cancelled since I had to chat with her as I passed out candy (still glad she came over, she just screwed up my plans)
-also because she came over I ran out of time and wasn't able to bake a brownie that I wanted to make
-had several kids skip the house even though my door was open and I was hanging out by the front door
-tried to use glow sticks in lieu of the porch light but they never really got bright enough to make a difference
-tried to throw glow sticks in the yard to make it look spiffy but yet the unraked leaves hid them
-once I threw the glow sticks on the driveway after my mom left, the kids started asking for them or just taking them so they ran out fast
-due to the nonexistent light, I wasn't able to accurately see a lot of the costumes so it felt like I was handing out candy to greedy kids instead of to cool costumed kids
-I had to end handing out candy just a bit early because I had a whopping 5 pieces left out of the original near 200
-warmed up some leftovers, cooking them longer than usual but they STILL were quasi cold
-my body was pretty sore from walking around all day so I tried to take a nap; Dan coming home and automatically watching some tv blasted noise into my room upstairs so it woke me up before I wanted to
-my cheesecake didn't settle correctly so it's now all a big mush that you eat from a bowl instead of from a plate

Not really much went well for the day. Highlight was settling down and watching the horror comedic movie Lo at around 3am today.

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I wonder which is worse: my dad wanting to see a movie only because it has nudity in it (but of course not saying that's the reason) or the fact that I know it has nudity and I've already seen the nude scenes online? I think me getting into his porn stash when I was 10 or 11 really fucked me up more than I fully comprehend...

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Recently, for the past couple months, the main thing that has excited me about going to work (besides keeping my job) is getting to see Hot Girl. Yet, at the same time, I'm forcing myself to not talk to her as much because supervisor's can't get too buddy-buddy with the interviewers (and if we dated one? damn, the world would likely end). But all I truly want to do, whenever she's here, is sit next to her and talk with her. Anytime we get to talk, it brings a smile to my face. So it hurts to not be able to talk to her as much as I want, but I know if I do it may be too common knowledge that I have a major crush on her. Fuck, it really sucks.

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After being a member for 3 months, I finally decided to "wink" at a girl on Geek2Geek. We had a lot of similarities and she lived something like 2 miles away from me. There were a couple of qualities I didn't like (such as that she occasionally smoked, which I am against obviously). I was still pretty freaked out over the whole thing but felt I needed to force myself forward, to finally do something. So I waited to see if she'd reply.

And waited. And waited. 10 days have passed and she's logged in a couple times since then. So, in other words, very slim chances of her "winking" back at me.

Le sigh.

At least I tried. I'm still feeling uncomfortable with this whole thing. Every thing in my body is screaming at me to just delete my account, saying this is not how I want to get a first date. I want it to be real, not quasi manufactured from a website where people tell lies about themselves to attract other people. Everyone else wants me to keep using the site, but I just don't think I want to.

It also doesn't help that 90% of the people on the site are people I could never imagine myself being with. Either they're too geeky (hardcore gamers, cosplayers, etc) or they're just butt-fugly (pot calling the kettle black, I know). I feel bad for saying it. I know this thinking is going against what the site is for. I just can't imagine me with most of them, and if I can't imagine then I lose all interest. It happened to me back in high school (and a couple years) with a girl that was interested in me but I friendzoned, I just couldn't see myself with them.

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Proud and happy as hell you took the first step as a member of that website and winked at another girl. Rejection is a natural part of dating so don't let it discourage you regardless of whether you delete your profile or not.

Regarding profiles on dating sites being "manufactured" as opposed to the "real thing", at lounges and bars and even if you're being set up on a blind date, people have a tendency to embellish things about themselves. People typically want to make a great first impression, hence the few white lies. The internets is not all that different from real life really.

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I know all about the whole blind date type thing (went on a horrible one at the beginning of last year which led me to never trust my mom's judgement in that field again, lol) and I'd never try to pick up a girl at the bar.

I think, to me, the best type of thing I could get is the "Hollywood" pickup that is popular in indie movies. Where you randomly run into a girl out doing normal errands and you hit it off pretty well and things begin to grow after that. No worry about artificial masks at that point and stuff like that.

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You over think all this way too much.

All you need to do is "yes" when people ask you do stuff, or actively try and do things with your friends. The more you go out, the more likely you are to run into someone you will like, and they will like you.

If you ask them out the worst thing that could ever happen is they say "no". If they do? What's the big deal? You're no worse off than you were before, and what does it really matter if someone you don't know doesn't want to go on a date? Everything to gain from someone saying yes, and nothing to lose if they say no.

Everyone tries to put on a good impression when they meet new people, it's perfectly normal. You get past that as you get more comfortable with a person, it's part of growing a relationship.
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Going to an Ugly Holiday Sweater Party tomorrow. Went last year and it was a blast seeing old friends.

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Mmm...pomegranates! My coworker gave me one for XMas and I just now got around to eating it. Ate it in the breakroom (no way in hell am I staining my desk purple, lol) and it luckily synched up with Hot Girl's break time. Had a nice time chatting with her, something I miss doing and wish I could do it more...

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Wowza! I found a couple shitty scans of comics that hadn't been put through Photoshop and I asked advice on how to handle it in DC++ and everyone snapped at me to leave them alone and not "fix" them. One guy even said if I were to fix a scan then he would kick me out of the hub. WTF? It's a shitty scan that can be fixed by being put through Photoshop for 10 minutes, but nope, they won't allow that. Bastards, wish I could find a new hub but this is the top tier one left...

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Then I had some guy approach me about me possibly joining the ranks of the other editors. Which was pretty interesting, until suddenly he asked to send me a rar of scans through email. And his nickname was a generic one titled email04404 or something like that. Made me think he was a tad sketchy, lol. Instead of answering I just exited the program, I can always claim I lost internet connection. It just felt a bit, you know, creepy.

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Further stories of depravity from the cleaning guy at work: He first wanted to show me a picture of his daughter, which I found odd but alright, go ahead. She's surprisingly hot (he's not a prince charming). Then he proceeded to the next picture and said, "you know who this is" yet I had no clue and was quite shocked at what he showed me. It was a set of several naked pictures of the girl he's currently "having fun with" in those "fun" situations. There were about 15 pictures in total in different positions. Great way to shock your system awake. Have to give him props, for such an old guy he sure did get a hottie. It's been 5 hours and I'm still a bit horny and disgusted at the same time...

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I did something I've been contemplating for awhile. Back when I was still friends with my ex-roommate, we went on a spring break trip to Williamsburg (a preserved colonial town). I bought a really cool mug that I had planned to give away but ended up using for myself. Every time I drank from it, it made me think of her. And since I've been trying to forget her for, oh, 6 years, I didn't want to keep it around. But I kept pushing off getting rid of it until I could get a better mug yet I just never did. I finally found some good mugs yesterday, nice deep and sturdy.

Thus, I finally threw away the mug that reminds me of her. Just another step towards forgetting her.

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You should have taken a shit in the mug and left it on her doorstep.

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But on second thought what you did was probably a better idea. And the mature thing to do.

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Today is Mardi Gras/Fat Tuesday. For the last several years, I've celebrated by either baking a King Cake or bringing in a King Cake to work. Last year I did a twist where I made Mini King Cakes. This year I decided to do a more traditional French version by going with a cream cheese center. Yet since I was doing the dough by hand, it got screwed up and didn't rise enough or possibly rose too much. It didn't double like it was supposed to so I let it rise some more and still didn't double, yet once I did the "punch" test it deflated like it was supposed to. So after baking it, it came out way too puffed up which is a sign that it was let rise too much. Plus my oven if a fucking piece of shit and I can never tell whether I'm on the right temp or not and half the time I think my separate temp gauge doesn't accurately work. Then the fucking icing was too runny even though I made it exactly as the recipe called, even adding in a bit more powdered sugar to make sure it was thick enough. I'll still take it to work since they'll eat anything, but it just fucking sucks that each year I somehow screw it up x_x

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Slowly but surely over the last year or so I've felt myself pulling away from some of my friends that I do RPGs with. Several of them are religious and/or have completely opposite political views from myself, so I had already stopped following their Facebook updates. Others I find myself easily getting annoyed at. Part of me has wanted to just up and leave them, walk away to be with better friends.

Then one sent me a PM with a long religious diatribe, saying he thinks I get depressed because I have a "god shaped whole [sic] in my heart" because I'm Agnostic. He swears he's not trying to force religious beliefs on me, yet he then says I should go to church.

*sigh*

That's why I don't like religions. People say they're not trying to push you towards religious beliefs yet they then want you to go to church with them. Yes, I'm Agnostic. But that doesn't mean I have thoughts that your Christian God may be real, I have doubts that there aren't forces (such as the Fates) that are behind the scenes. I whole-heartedly believe in the Big Bang Theory and Evolution, I believe in Free Will, I don't believe in Heaven/Hell (yet I accept that others do), I believe there was a historical person named Jesus but he wasn't a Messiah or could perform miracles, he was just a guy that could get a following. My wavering is not towards your religion, if anything it's towards my belief in polytheism due to growing up and doing research on the Greek Gods.

I don't even know how to respond to him. I am a bit infuriated with him for saying that stuff to me, it's not his place to do that.

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When my package arrives, make sure the ToT is a first print.

I am slightly concerned I may sent an 2nd print by accident, but if I did, I have a first print sitting here for you.
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Well, fuck. The girl I have a crush on just put in her 2-week notice at work, and it's possible she may not even be able to make it for the last 2 weeks anyway as she already has another job. So that means I have no constant, regular contact with females close to my age besides cashiers and such at restaurants. Fuck, that's not good.

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Talk about my mind straight up fucking with me. My dream for the night? That I go into a store and find a box of cereal that mysteriously has a note written from Hot Girl that just resigned from work. It is a huge note and it explains her feelings for me and saying she wants to get together and do things right. That was such a great feeling in the dream, it was like my whole life had been made with finding that. Then in my dream I go to work and all I can think of is her, yet I wake up and realize it's all a dream.

This is a girl I'll never see again in real life, I didn't even get to say goodbye, so my mind decides to twist the knife. Fuck, that was more like a nightmare. To make matters worse, evidently she called the work voicemail and left a message saying goodbye to all of us but my coworker got to it first and fucking deleted it. So I'll never even hear her voice again.

She's the only girl I've really had a crush on for the past 5 years or so. We would chat all the time. We had a nice little connection music-wise where we shared bands that we liked. I was never able to go further than just friends because a supervisor cannot date an interviewer, so I was fine with just being good friends. The last time I saw her was on a Saturday a month or so ago, she came in to pick up her check and we chatted for a good hour or so. It was pure bliss, one of the last time I experienced an extremely positive thing in life. Now I'll likely never see her again. Fuck.

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