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You can facebook her then ask if she'd like to hang out some time.

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Can't, don't know her Facebook. I tried looking awhile ago after she started talking about it but never could find it.

I'm obviously just overreacting right now. I think it's part of my empathic nature, small emotional events are turned into large emotional things for me and I just need to wait to get over it.

Just sucks because she really was the only person I enjoyed talking to at work besides my brother. I was perfectly fine with being "just friends" with her because we did have a lot of good chats. Just means work is going to be much duller and I won't have any frequent interactions with females my age for a bit.

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In good news, I got my yearly review (almost 4 months after handing my self-evaluation, but I'm fine with that). Definitely a positive review, nothing bad mentioned at all ^_^

Best thing? I got a mini-promotion! I've been a "Research Associate" for 5 years and am now a "Research Supervisor" (my unofficial title for the past 5 years has been Supervisor so it's nice to truly been one). So I got an 8% raise (5% normal and 3% promotion) which is very nice.

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Congratulations on the raise. Appreciation in the form of monetary compensation is always appreciated.

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My brother and sister-in-law just had their second baby, a little girl! So I'm an uncle for the second time ^_^ She's named Dalia and I cannot wait to meet her but it likely won't be for a few days to let them rest. I'm bringing my sister-in-law lavender lemon squares tomorrow.

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Congratulations Chris! You can be the cool uncle again

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Was able to spend some more time with my new niece on Saturday. She was asleep for most of the hour I held her, but she did wake up and look around from time to time. She is only 6 days old, so not much interactions can be had.

Yet my other niece that day dropped the f-bomb! She's a little over 2 and we're still not certain as to whether she truly meant it or not but we're 90% sure she did. What happened is the cat was trying to get the water in one of her playsets, thus knocking the thing over. She freaks out (she likes things to be a certain way and has fauxtantrums if they're not that way). I automatically put it right side up and refill the water in the tiny-bathtub for her. She automatically stops crying (as I said, it was a fauxtantrum) and I ask her if it's ok now. She says "yes" and then turns her head, hits a beat, and randomly says "fuck".

My brother and I just stare at each other, do the whole mental "did she say what I think she said?!?" and burst out of the room to keep us from laughing so hard. I literally double over and fall to the ground laughing. Our stepdad said he saw her face, and it appeared a legit "oh fuck, they caught me" type of face when she said "fuck". So damn hilarious!

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TMI Post:

I woke up to an ant biting my penis. Seriously, what the fuck?!? It was right at the tip and wouldn't budge by flicking it. Fucking weird as hell.

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Feeling extremely lonely and ignored recently.

Recently I'm feeling like my "friends" are not really real friends. They ignore my regular posts on Facebook that aren't depressy, and they choose to only comment when they want to disagree with a political post. In fact, because of them I've posted more political posts simply so people would have something to talk about and have discussions. Yet mostly they just try to tell me I'm wrong and force their opinions on me. Even when I try to do general posts about random stuff or comic book posts, I mostly get ignored. Makes me think all people I actually want to talk to have hidden all my posts. Then I try to bring up a convo with someone else and it lasts 1 or 2 posts and that's it.

I had a friend after an RPG ask "so how're you doing?" and then promptly talked about himself for an hour. He does this all the time, always first posing as concerned for how I am and then talking about himself only and turning whatever I say back on himself.

I rarely get to chat with Dan, most of the time he is too busying doing school work or watching tv. I try to bring up convos but they never last, and he rarely tries to start one.

Just feeling like I need new friends yet I don't know how to get new friends.

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Went to the doc and had a physical. I've put this off for several years and it was pretty much as bad as I expected. In the last 2 years I've gained a lot of weight which pisses me off as I try to eat right and it just doesn't work out. Fuck you, depression. Getting blood work done since I am genetically screwed. Already have the start of high blood pressure, going back in a month to confirm. Most of the family is on blood pressure medicine so it was only a matter of time.

Really just want to curl up with a pint of Ben & Jerry's Ice Cream and eat the pain away.

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Post by wolf_2099 »

jedispyder wrote:
Really just want to curl up with a pint of Ben & Jerry's Ice Cream and eat the pain away.
That will not help any of the problems listed.

Go for a walk instead, enjoy the fresh air.
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I know. Just because I want to do something doesn't mean I am going to do it, lol. Depression pulls me down like that a lot and recently I've been working on avoiding "comfort food" like that and so far I've been mostly successful.

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Leaving for Gen Con in Indianapolis on Wednesday, I'll be gone until Sunday night. Or at least hopefully I'm leaving Wednesday, lol.

I took my car in to the mechanic for a quick check and it turns out my entire brake system is going bad. The mechanic told me that he wouldn't even drive it across the street, he felt it was that unsafe. So I have to get a whole bunch of stuff replaced (tires, drums, connectors, etc). Will cost what I'll make in a month and a half, which sucks big time. He said he could be done with it tomorrow afternoon so hopefully I'll be able to leave at a decent time...

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Saturday was my birthday. Actually had a blast with it at Gen Con! Slept in late, did a Pathfinder RPG where the GM was a complete joke but it was still a great time. Lunch at an actual California Pizza, I love their frozen stuff at the store so excited to finally get.to an actual restaurant. Ended the night at Dub That Hentai from Cosplay Deviants. As the name says, you get to participate and dub Hentai going on silent. Loads of fun there, I didn't participate but hearing Gollum and Sean Connery voices do porn was awesome. Tomorrow is the last day, no plans so it should be interesting.

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Happy Belated birthday.

Had a happy Gen Con this year?

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Happy Birthday!
I think it'd be awesome to do a con on my birthday.
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Happy birthdays!

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Thanks, everyone! The convention went so much better this year. Last year I mentally felt like shit and was alone a lot. This year I felt more included and tried to live in the moment, which worked out great. Was able to spend a lot of time with my hotelmates doing games which didn't happen at all last year.

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Had to take my car back to the mechanic. A little after I got back from Gen Con, my brake light was popping on from time to time. Then the last week the brakes began feeling odd, finally culminating in me having to press the brakes down completely to even begin to brake.

Took them 2 hours of maintenance. They found out after several tests that the brake line they had created 2 weeks ago had a leak in it and that's why the pressure of the brake pedal was worsening. Luckily they didn't charge me for it, guess due to them likely screwing it up in the first place lol. Either way, I'm satisfied with how the car has driven since the original fix and this fix brings it back up again.

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Read the novel The Perks of Being a Wallflower again. It was a book (such as Catcher in the Rye) that I put atop a pedestal as being the best of the best in literature. I was so nervous about reading it again as I didn't want to taint its perfect image in my mind. Luckily, rereading it made it much better than the last time.

Partially, I think, because of my experience with my ex-roommate. Some of the things that occurred with the main character and his crush-turned-best-friend made me think of my experience, of how it really fucked me up inside like it did the main character. The last time I read the novel I guess I felt more of a "I'm a loner like this kid but he's lucky he was randomly accepted into a new group of friends" whereas now it's more "well, fuck, that's definitely me."

Now, instead of being in my Top 20 favorite novels, it's in my Top 5. Possibly even #1, as I've never reread a book and had it make even more sense/relate even more.

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